Author: Loni Strach

Oh, she is so special and I like what I see.
Look at her face, it is so beautiful
She stares at me, do you see it?
She looks and looks but never says anything.
Look at her, can you tell with every look?
What her face says?

Watch it and you shall see what I mean.
Can you see it?

She will pretend that she is not looking at you,
and will not speak to you.
She really just wants you to see,
her pure happiness, so she can smile her pure Joy.
And show you her true Love for you!

Do you see it?
That smile on her face,
Is showing you how she feels!

She knows
that you will know
when you see it.

That amazing smile on her face!
For its given only to you.

One day Sara was walking down the street to the supermarket. As she approached the Foods-Are-Us store, he heard someone call her name. “Sara! Sara! Sara!” Sara looked around and saw a woman staring at her. At that point, Sara became confused. Then she looked at the woman and said “Hello Sara, how are you?” At that moment Sara just wanted to run away because she was confused and unsure how to act! Then the woman said, “It’s okay Sara, I’m not here to hurt you.” she then walked up to Sara, held out her hand, and said: “My name is also Sarah… How are you?” Then Sara said, “Ok… nice to meet you. That’s so weird and kind of cool that both of us have the same names.” And then the woman says, “I know, that has always been my most favorite name! Ever since I was a child, I knew I would always name my daughter Sara!”

Sara replied, “Okay So did you?” “Yes I did” said Sarah, “It was the happiest day of my life.” “Sounds nice… my mom and I do not have the same name. Her name is Stephanie.” “That’s lovely!” Sarah says, “How is she?” says Sarah. “She’s fine but I don’t see her much these days because she moved to Arizona 3 years ago.” “Oh but Arizona is nice. Can I ask you a question?” Sara says “Go ahead and ask” Sarah asks an odd question, “Okay who do you live with?” Sara feels this question is weird but replies truthfully to the seemingly harmless woman “Um, I live with my father for right now and soon I want to move to Texas!?” “Oh that’s lovely but what will you do there?” “I don’t know yet” she replied. Sarah continues to ask questions “Can I ask, how old are you?” “How old do I look?” Sarah replies confidently “When I hear you talk and see your face you look 19 years old and beautiful!” Sara is shocked and replies “Um that is weird because I just turned 19 4 days ago! Then they both laughed together and Sarah said “You know what, I knew your birthday just passed!”

Then Sara begins to be confused and worried about this strange woman. Who is she and why does she know my birthday? Sara asks “How did you know and who are you?” Sarah put her head down, coughed a bit, and then smiled and said “Sara, I am your mother.” Sara stood there shocked and could not believe what she was hearing. She began to cry because she was always emotional about her past, and grew angry because she did not understand why someone would say that to her. She yelled back at Sarah “I do not believe you, my mother is like no other and she is the best! I don’t believe you and you are a liar!” Sarah pauses and takes a deep breath and says “I’m sorry, but I am not lying. I would never do such a thing! The woman you call Mom is my sister! Stephanie is my big sister!”

“What the hell is happening here?” Sara says in disbelief. “It’s a hard story to tell, but it’s all true and I will tell you.” Sara takes a moment to think and reluctantly says “Okay, but first I want you to answer my questions for me.” “Yes of course” Sarah happily replies. Sara begins with her first question “Why did you give me to your sister?” Sarah pauses and replies “Um, this will be hard” “Tell me the full story then.” Sarah says, “Okay this is the full truth and I will not lie.”

Both Sarah and Sara sit on a bench outside the store and Sara is eager to hear the story from Sarah to see if she is telling the truth or just another lie. “I was 18 years old when I met your dad in school and we dated and eventually things began to happen and before I knew it, we began to be intimate with each other. After this happened, we remained on good terms and time went on. However, I felt sick and I knew something was wrong, and went to the doctors. Sure enough I turned out to be pregnant! And I was in shock and thought they had to have made a mistake. After they confirmed it was the truth, I went home and cried for many nights after. I had plans for my life after highschool, I wanted to go to college but it all had changed. I was pregnant.”

“I had to tell my parents and my mother cried for days. They wanted me to get an abortion. But I did not know what to do… but then I said NO! I will not do that to my baby! It was then that my big sister, who is 10 years older than me, told me she would take care of you, because I was too young to be a mother. I did not want to give you up, but I knew it was the best thing to do for you and me! Once I gave birth to you, she adopted you and became your mother. I stayed away from you because I did not want to confuse you. I could see she was good for you, so I hugged an kissed you and said goodbye and that I love you. I gave you my name so you would not forget me. I am very sorry but it was the best thing for you. I am positive she was a great mom for you.”

Sarah looks at Sara in the eyes and says “If its okay with you, please call me Aunt Sarah! Even though you have a loving mother, I will always be there for you. Please forgive me and know, I will always love you forever! You’ll always be a fabulous niece Sara” Sara was in sock from the whole story but still believed her because she felt a strange motherly connection with this woman. She took a moment to gather herself and replied “I love you Aunt Sarah, and thank you for everything.” Sara left and went home in tears. She got home and hugged her mother and said, “I love you mom!” Her mother replied “I know you know now, but I will always be your mother.”

There are so many good people in this world
And so many that aren’t.

For the good hold their own
making things their best always.

Its the bad people
that want to share their lies and untruths!

Those that are bad
always want to make everyone as miserable as they are
because its all about them!

Misery Loves Company
No Matter What

For those not adding to the misery,
they find out how to let it all go and they will kiss the bad stuff goodbye.

If you love misery to its fullest,
then you can not and will not
ever
be
happy.
So just let it go!

For we all know all too well that
Misery Loves Company!!

Pure happiness comes from the gift of Love!
For if you never find happiness,
then you will never know what Love is!!

Our dream in life is to be loved,
by whoever we spend time with!

When you open your heart and give your best
to those in need, you will be accepted!

It is the moment when your words
begin to change someone’s soul!

I love you!
I’ll always be here for you!
You can count on me forever!

These words become positive reinforcements
in a way that will change lives forever!!!

Showing someone that you really love them
affects that person in the best positive way!!

Love changes everything in a way that it takes away
the bad and fear that does not exist!

When you show someone how much they are loved,
forever!

It makes them nothing but happy,
forever!

Love is what changes our souls!!!
So be sure to give, the gift of Love!!!

You give what you don’t want,
And take what you do want!

Then there are some days
when what you do want, gets taken away,
out of your own control!

So you begin to rage against the machine
What the hell happened?

Who are these people?
Why did they take it all away from me?

Then you should start to think,
what should I do?
Should I call the police?
Or should I ask god
Why? Why? Why?

For in this life we live,
we may never get the answers we want!

Looking for the truth and getting all the answers we want
gives you the confidence you need!!!

How do you move on from the life you once knew and missing the details of the life you have today?
Its all been lost so you have to find a way to get back the important things that meant the world to you and leave you in disarray.
For we all experience our past in all its ways but the bad we will give up, and not let it take over.
For once we do that, it all falls down over our shoulder!
The way life works is that you live how you want and do your best because the day will come when we become our worst some times.
Then we look for answers and want explanations as to why this is.
As human beings we learn and figure it out to become right in our own fight ultimately learning that we are right!
If you give it your best and do it right then nothing will ever beat you, and take what is yours against all odds!
What you want and what you need is only yours to figure out, and no one else can take it away from you.
Days will get hard until you figure it out but you will never give in and Let It Go no matter your doubts.
So never fill your self with fear and hate for that will never make you think straight.
But the truth is you are the best for you!

Forget all the rest of this crap, I endure in the here and now.
Move on to my future, and take all the power, I know this is the day!
Do what you do, and make it come true, for always!
Wish for the best plans, in this crazy life always!
For it is what it is, and life does what it does.
But you cannot give up, and let the bad take over.
But we can fight this fight and walk the walk knowing that we can always try!
For we will win this little war that will change as the days go by!

For if you give up…
you will never win…
on any given day!!!

So don’t get taken away, and never give up.
You can always fight this fight, then do what is right.
But as the days go by, you will always prove right, in every way!!!

A lifelong battle pursues the tormented, refusing to assuage the heart and soul where a relationship splintered beyond repair offers cruel hopelessness.

Eternally standing outside and looking in to what she misses the most yet unwilling to forgive the hurt done to her, by those meant to protect her.

Her heart, seemingly encased in layers of steel acts to insure against all future pain while blocking her off from the family she needs.

She survives her fragmented new life alone allowing her anger to act as a reminder of what she has already lost, incapable of remembering who she was before the betrayal.

Caught in the eternal wave of fight or flight to save herself once more, she screams for help to help her heal what is broken inside.